Hey, Tammy. So sorry to hear what you are going through, and have been, apparently, all of your life. Your writing captures it well, and you are courageous to share it and your thoughts with us. So, here are two thoughts that came to me as I was reading this. Perhaps the migraines are a you that is wanting to come out and express itself and can’t find the way. I note the contrast between your profession as an accountant, and your current desire to express creativity. And somehow tied into this — and I am no health professional — but have you tried finding a good homeopath, which is one powerful and wholistic approach to getting to the root-cause of things, instead of just treating the symptoms? And it is far less expensive than what you have been going through and question. Like I said, just a couple of thoughts… Be well!