I can totally believe all that you say. I have not experienced Goddess in that way, yet. My husband is a Shaman of the Twisted Hairs of Turtle island tradition, and is well experienced with Her and many other Teacher plants. The closest I came to that was many years ago, while in college, with LSD, so I am familiar with how powerfully transformative these experiences can be. I wrote a poem after one such experience, which I still re-read periodically, to remind me. Take care (-: